Andre' Demond Queen

Hey, dre whats up bro! i hope yall having fun up there.i miss you soo much dude! I mean when we play basketball, and football everyday i think about yall tackling my small self and making me fumble.lol..i just wish yall was here! and i never knew that me and you were god bro's untill my grandmother told me! ijust broke down into tears because we never really actually hung out! it was just when you and dee hung out! he was my first cousin! anyways i miss the days when you were by me and dee's grandmother house,and all of us would play fight and deen would get me, and you was say dooley i got your back! and i would say ok! and just sit there and think of it as you were my real brother! i know you are in a better place.

i miss the days at night time when i would make me,dee and you some eggs(haha).

and you would say these some good eegs! and i would say i know! i go and sit at the pond and think of you and dee all day! i just stare and juts think why you and dee had too go away! i mean yall should be here! i really miss you mann! knowing that my god brother is gone hurts too me! during the leap on april 6th! in class i broke into tears cause yall would be here being happy that yall going to high skool! and i was sad! and i couldnt concertare! imean i just ignore ppl at timez when i think about yall two! wishing yaall was here! i love you with alll my heart! i hope to meet your mom one day, and tlk to her and hang out! i saw her at e.a.track when i had practice! and looked into her eyes and though of you! yall will stay with me FOREVER.i hope to see your grave one day bro! love you rest in peace!

poem by: me,ya lil bro! cardell haynes!

deeNdre

could still be here today

but only that driver so blind

i wonder wat was on his mind

killing you and dee

yall cud be playing b-ball with me

i sit and think of yall everyday

saying to myself why you and dee

had to go away

if you were just here

i wouldnt have to shed so many tears

soo for now long i will say so long

till the day we meet again

which i hope to not be very long

love you bro!

DreDre itz been a year since I heard your voice telling me you "Love me". I miss you Dre.   I miss that 2:45 call when you get out of school, calling me saying hey ma where you at and I reply at work boo why? Oh okay well you know I love you huh? well can we go to Mcdonald tonight to get that meal. #1  with powerade  no ice. Dre even the last thing you told me was I love you mama and see you when I see you not knowing that April 6 2008 that Sunday was going to the last time.Things  ARE NOT THE SAME without you.

Love you Mama

 

Well its been a year since da last time I seen u and I still can't believe you're gone. adjusting to life without u has truly been an still is a challenge for all of us.we laugh an joke but its all a cover up from da hurting deep nside. Today I thought bout u all day long. I still remember wen u were layn n da hospital I told mama dat u were coming home, no matta wut. but I wuz wrong. There wuz no doubt n my mind dat u was coming back home to tell ur story. Today I felt like I was sleep walkn hoping sumbody wud wake me up an tell me dat errythng dats been goin on n my life is jus a dream. I'm taking it all n an findin strenghth withn myself to keep it togeta. Sometimes I get so full til I jus have 2 let it all out.Dre I know you are in a betta place but I miss u so much.

Itz me again DreDre, well let me begin I went to court today for you. I finally got to

see Mr. Chris face to face he sat on the bench across from me. I cryd it hurt me so bad to be so close to the human being that took my baby away from me.  I did/went for you baby, and I will be there on the 22nd of June also I will be there for you until this is all over. I love you Andre' There is a saying that goes   (You don't miss your water until your wells run dry). Well my wells was You because I really miss you honeybun.  I know that your dad and I don't talk as people,  but the last thing I would want is for him  not to be included in the trial for you, so I sent words to inform him of the status. Well I am getting sleepy now have to be at work in the morning for 6, yes still at it. I think I will do it for a least 5 to 6 more years, If you was here I would retire when you finish school, but that is wishful thinking. I saw Jacolby, L Dee, Saturday walking coming from DHS I was leaving from LaDarius grave putn flowers on it.  My eyes filled up with water, because I know  if you and LaDarius was  here the two of you will be coming from shooting Basketball, joking around with each other, but I know that you and Lil Dee are in Heaven playn all the b-ball you want too,  never growning old and getting tired.

Love and Miss you

Mama

~DreDre it's me again I just had a good day at work learning new things in my new section. Im working in the Sex Offender Section now. I work with a lot of people and talk to a lot of people on a daily basic, people complain about their everyday life about how bad things are and how depress they are. Complaining about they don't have the correct shoes to match their attire that they are wearing, etc. They don't know how to appreicate the little tihings in life, today people takes so much for granted.  Depress is when you go home and your baby boy is no longer at home with you not because he is at someone house, no depress is knowing that your child is gone for good due to someone else mistake. (Drunk Driver)
Let me tell you what depress is. When someone call you in the middle of the night to inform you that your baby boy has been involved in an car accident, and your heart stop. The resulting feelings of shock, anger, guilt, and deep sadness can be intense, long lasting, and complicated. It is difficult to imagine the depth of pain caused by such a traumatic event. What I feels like now. No lose compares to the death of a child. I am a parent coping with such a loss due to a drunk driver. The last thing a parent wants to do is go t to the hospital and your baby is laying in there with tubes and needles stuck in him breathing on a machine.  A parent is not suppose to bury their child  When you lose a parent you grieve of the past when you lose a child you grieve of their future. My baby future was to become a Man of God, play basketball, marry and have children, but that will never happen for him THAT'S WHAT DEPRESS IS NOT HAVING YOUR BABY AROUND TO SEE HIM GROW INTO THAT FINE YOUNG MAN THAT A PARENT LONG FOR THEIR CHILD. Dre I could remember on April 3, you ask me to not to schedule to work overtime on Monday April 7, 2008 because that was "Freshmen Day" @ Dutchtown High School and you wanted me to be there. Dre you was so happy to be entering into the 9th grade and go to  high school, stating " Mama your baby is growing up, I reply yes you are baby" you are becoming a young man now which I am very PROUD of, then I reply I am PROUD of all 3 of my sons, as always Dre you would say "yes" but all the attention is on me now, with that smile on your face. Dre that day April 5, you was so happy that you was going to the movie with all your friends, you, colby, Lil dee, Tevin, and scooter and all your other friends. I MISS YOU BABY JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU , PEOPLE NEED TO PRAY. Stop complaining so much and PRAY.

Because you are in a transitional period, it is imperative that you neither live in the past by dwelling on past events or live in the future by focusing your attention on the days ahead. You must focus your attention on what you are facing at this moment. Ask for wisdom to understand and deal with your current position so that you can make the most of your life now. Living in disappointment, regret or fantasy is a waste of your time and vitality. Release yourself from all rejectioing. Say the Lord. Dre I long that 2:30 phone call from u after school, I would give anything to hear that phone ring with u asking me "ma

what time r u getting off and what are we eating 2 night?.

Love u dude.

 Dre, i miss cumin to ya house and playing ball. Something bad would always happen everytime you have company, and Ms lisa never gets mad, so we dont listen anyway. There's not a day goes by that i don't think about you and Dee. Playing football without you is not the same. Many days have been boring ever since. I never enjoyed my self once. I miss you soo much man. It seems like a dream, I wish someone would wake me up. It maks me cry, wen i see ppl at school always having good time, like you and Dee never happen. Just as they forgotten. Most people moved on from that, but i cant. I get distracted at my school work thinking about you and Dee, I wouldnt talk to my other friends. How would my life been better if yall were still here? On bak of my school ID is 4/6/08....That day will always be remember..ppl ask me, "what does that stand for"?. I'll be So speechless, and walk away... I Miss You man

Life Is So Unpredicable.

Changes always come along in big ways and small steps, sometimes giving us a little nudge and other times turning our whole world upside down. So many changes; some subtle and almost unnoticeable, some drastic and more difficult to deal with.  But throughout all of life's changing and rearranging, Im so glad that there is one wonderful thing that I will never change that is the Love I will always have for you.

Hey dude. My life hAS Been like a rollercoaster these last few months. I thank God for giviing me the strength to keep going because its been many times i just feel like giving up. Between this wedding an errything else i feel overwhelmed, anyway Derez is getting bigger by the day> i know you would be soooo tall if you were here. The other day i seen Mrs. Lori going to DHS I sure to get Jacolby> It hurted cuz i know you would have been getting in that car too. I love you

Ask any parent. Parenting is a task filled with great joy. It can also be a task filled with great pain. After all, parents care deeply for their children. They want to run ahead of their children and anticipate problems. But parents have limited resources to control the future. They cannot save their children from the pain of tragedy or bad mistakes. Human parents have limited ability to bring good out of every road their children might take. In the care of ordinary mothers , I see a reflection of the providential("to see ahead") care of the heavenly Father. Unlike ordinary parents, our divine Father has perfect vision concerning the future. After all, history itself is in God's hands. That doesn't mean he always saves us from foolish mistakes or painful tragedies. But it does mean that when our lives are caught up in the life of Christ, he guides us in ways that bring us ultimate blessing.  Dre' I Thank God for the 13 years he gave me you 13 years to take care of you , 13 years to LOVE you, 13 years to laugh,cry and most of all enjoy you.

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

Dre' it"s gettin close to Valentine and my sweetheart for Valentine (you DreDre) will not be here with me.  Dre I stare at your pics everydayyyyyyyyyyy, especially the one where u is smiling with the black and white shirt, it's hnging in my bedroom on the wall by the window,and  ur last school pic. I look at TV and u r there, I go in the family room and ur there, go up the stairs there u r again, I did a wall of ONLY U upsairs, in ur bedroom nutn but pictures, clothes and etc. of u but i guess i will change things of u in a couple of months. I will re-do it over in another place of PEACE and HARMONY.  GOD IS SO GOOD, HE ANSWER PRAYERS FOR U. I forgive the guy that did this terrible thing to u and Ladarius in order for God to forgive me I have to forgive those that do or have done me wrong. I Love U my baby boy.